Menu Plan Monday ...

I've opted not to mention how I feel and just try to go forward with the week, cause it will get better... I will say I feel like I wasted my entire weekend though ... Ugh. LOL!

My hub is off all week to get some things done around the house, and you'll see some meals never happened last week. But here's the plan.

Sunday -- BBQ Chicken Legs, Mac & cheese, Veggies and Fruit

Monday -- Turkey Burgers or Sausage, (Josh does not like any sausage!), Orzo Pasta with Butter, Veggies and Fruit

Tuesday -- Cheesy Chicken Enchiladas, Brown Rice, Corn

Wednesday -- Leftovers

Thursday -- Meatball Subs, Salad and Cut up Fruit

Friday -- Chicken Spaghetti

I may make these, it depends all on how I am feeling. I'll use sucanat instead of white sugar and put some whole wheat flour in -- I need a treat!

Space Adventures is coming up in 2 weeks and lots to get done for that!! Lots of cupcake making!

Please help us pray for another successful event!

I made it ...

... does that count?

God worked it out about the Neulasta shots ... I'll write more this weekend.

Feeling okay, just not the best.

Just wanted to write a short note, and thank God for my healing. I do believe it. IJN!

Thanks for your prayers.

C Day ...

Totally unsure about anything this morning, its been a rough past week and I will be totally honest when I write that I dread this afternoon and treatment. The Taxol was a breeze compared to this stuff.

I have done pretty well with keeping upbeat but a black cloud has descended on me the last 3 days and it won't go away. I lost it the other night, I absolutely hate for my boys to hear/see that .

I've not felt well and had to drag myself to get a few hours in at work today. But I hope and pray tomorrow I am well enough to make it in.

I've learned many things through this journey thus far -- one is -- you never know what a person is going through, don't assume you know, because YOU DON'T. Don't add more to their burden -- be careful with your words and attitude -- they sting. They sting deeply. I will never assume to know what a person should do -- only those living it can do that.

Please help us pray about the finanical aspects of this -- we received the insurance paperwork for that Neulasta shot -- are you sitting down?
They expect us to pay $1162.00 our part. AND they want me to do 3 more of those? We are not prepared for that. We will talk with the doctor today to see if there is anything else, because we'll be paying for years on that. If I live through all this anyway.
The normal treatments are $65 for the Taxol and @ $105 for the A/C.
(huge sigh) We were doing so well -- this trial is hitting us all around, and not just my health.

Continue to pray about the surgery -- we both feel it needs to be OUT. It's such an aggressive cancer, it scares me to have it stay in there. But, I do believe God is containing it in the one tumour. IJN! I'm human, what can I say ...

I read this on a woman's blog who is dying from cancer (yes, I know now not to read those kinds of things, it only adds to the black cloud of dispair!) but it fits me today ...

God is still good.” And He is. We will not doubt Him now when the road ahead is dark. He will use this for good and for His glory. There is no doubt. And, in the depths of my sadness, that makes my heart glad.

Thanks for your prayers ...

Memorial Day

In honor of those who gave all ... thank you for your ultimate service/sacrifice for our Nation and its people. May your families be comforted by the Savior today and always.

Memorial Day is a United States federal holiday observed on the last Monday of May (May 25 in 2009). Formerly known as Decoration Day, it commemorates U.S. men and women who died while in the military service. First enacted to honor Union soldiers of the American Civil War (it is celebrated near the day of reunification after the civil war), it was expanded after World War I to include American casualties of any war or military action.

Menu Plan Monday --

I always do better with a plan -- while I don't always keep it, sometimes we have leftovers in the fridge that have to get eaten instead of new food made then we do that. There's a lot of food in there now, and I'm not sure why?

But I like knowing that I can look at the plan and know that I have the ingredients to fix a meal.

Sunday -- Meatloaf, Buttered Potatoes, Green Beans and Cut Up Fruit

Monday -- Church BBQ -- bringing Pasta Salad, Banana Pudding and Red, White & Blue Cupcakes (these were an experiment -- after seeing rainbow cupcakes!)

Tuesday -- Grilled Sausage, Beans and Mac & Cheese

Wednesday -- Leftovers

Thursday -- Meatball Subs, Salad and Cut up Fruit

Friday -- Chicken Spaghetti or Grilled Burgers (my BBQ tank is full again!)

Lots of appointments this week - my 4 day weekend flew out the window -- mainly because Friday I didn't accomplish much. Hopefully I'm still motivated. We'll be painting the living room/dining room/hallway in the next couple of weeks, should be fun! Not!!

A New Day

I'm thankful to the Lord for new days, new beginnings, new starts ... new moments to go forward from. I'm still taking the pain meds/motrin, but thankfully its not as bad and I can function. =)

God is so good to us, we'd be amazed if we knew everything He did -- I know there is much we never see or know.

My husband is off today and has a 3 day weekend! Of course right now he is outside mowing. The boys are still asleep. Stephen wasn't feeling well at all yesterday and basically slept on and off the entire day and then was up all hours of the night. Poor guy. He so wants a job for summer and he is applying.

I didn't accomplish as much as I wanted yesterday but today is a new day! I'm going to make the guys some Whole Wheat Waffles with Strawberries/Bananas and bacon. Do some house chores and head to town. We have a list from Home Depot to get some things done at the house, I'll stop at the store and church to pray. Later this afternoon, we'll head to Kansas City and the Great American BBQ Festival. It looks like fun. I know enough to stay covered from the sun. I didn't have a treatment this week due to my tooth issue so physically I am doing well.

Next week is full of appointments -- Doc on Tuesday (?), Cancer Class on Wednesday, I'd really like to go to this but need a partner and hub has to work, and Thursday is a scheduled treatment. He is absolutely unable to take me this week because his boss took the entire week off and he can't just go. I was actually at work the past 2 weeks for most of it, just 6 hours of sick leave and 5 of that was because of the tooth! Our busy time at work is coming up because this class graduates and we have to inprocess a brand new class. They need me there, I NEED to be there to do my job.

Sunday we have a special speaker at church and boy can he play the guitar and sing!! I'm looking forward to that. How to do my hair? Well, that is going to be a challenge. I wore a pink cap to prayer meeting last night -- and thankfully no one said anything except Joanna! Of course she wanted to wear it. I need to get her a pink one so we match.

Monday we have a church BBQ for Memorial Day at the Park and then we have some friends coming over after to talk about wedding plans and hopefully to get some fellowship time in.

Oh, that photo at the top is for Space Adventures II -- Blasting Off with Jesus!! I rented that for the June 14th day. It looks like they'll have a blast and I plan on getting in there too!! By the grace of God ...

Have a wonderful day/weekend and thank you for your prayers ... the Lord is good to us and provides our every need.

10 Resources for Finding Free and Cheap Things to Do This Summer

Courtesy of The Simple Dollar -- its a great blog to read by the way!

Psalm 27 -- my hub read this to me last night, and said it was for me. It's for you too!

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.

3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.

4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.
5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.

6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.

9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.

11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.

12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.

13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD

01:56 .. Still awake

Yesterday I ended up at the dentist office, my bottom right teeth have been giving me issues for a while, but I've put off taking care of it due to this new season of life issue. The endodontist said it was either a root canal done too long or my very back tooth needing a root canal. He had given me some antibiotics due to infection and things were quiet for a few months.

The pain started on Tuesday and went from none to unbearable. I am still hurting pretty bad -- I did get permission to get the root canal from the oncologist - along with antibiotics for another week. They did a root canal on the back molar. I'm praying that it will stop hurting by morning -- it usually takes a bit and there is infection in there plus the whole procedure. I'm on some pain relievers for the pain -- teeth pain is the absolute worse for me. The pain relievers are barely taking the edge off the pain -- I seriously need a break from the pain. I'm so tired -- need some rest.

For me on the pain scale -- 10 is emergency room/broken limbs etc. I'd have to say I'm at least at an 8 -- debated going yesterday evening but not really sure what they could do. I need my own numbing needle that the dentist has! I do have some pretty strong pain relievers and I get some relief but its short lived, and then the pain is back as strong as ever.

Any suggestions? I'm seriously struggling here. Lord, please touch my pain and heal it, In the name of Jesus I pray ...

Wordless Wednesday...

Thursday, 14 May 2009

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Phil 4:13 KJV

Josh & Lexi

Just wanted to share a photo of Josh & Lexi.

He is so not into taking pictures! You can see his hair beginning to grow back. I pray mine grows back as quickly! They both recently got new glasses.

They will be married in August -- the Man of God totally approves of this and believes it is the will of God. We've had some undercurrents of disapproval and even words of such.

They may be young but as long as they keep Christ first in their lives and at the center of their marriage, they will do just fine.

Our Pastor is working on 51 years of marriage, and quite a few others in our church were married young and are still going strong. Pray for them, encourage them, but don't discourage them as they try to follow God.

Prayer

Lord, I have received the diagnosis of breast cancer

Still my anxious heart as I seek to understand why-

Teach me to transform this suffering into growth,

My great fear of tomorrow into faith in your presence,

My tears into understanding,

My discouragement into courage,

My anger into forgiveness,
My bitterness into acceptance,

My experience with cancer into my testimony,

My crisis into a platform on which I can learn to help others.

God grant that one day I can embrace this time

as my friend, and not as my enemy.

Amen ... and amen.

Attitude ...

I woke with a major attitude today - (sigh) -- but here is cute baking pan for you. Love this -- and wouldn't it be great if it would actually taste like an Oreo? Yumo! Hub won't let me eat it though.

Tired of cancer.

Tired of having no energy.

Scared to death of losing any more hair.

My hair is not just hair -- there is scripture for why I do not cut my hair.

I am honestly more worried about my spiritual health then my physical at this point.

I never, ever should have done that hard chemo treatment.

I should have just left it in God's hands.

(sigh)

I know He has a plan for all this and I pray it doesn't involve any more stupid chemo.

I'm sorry if you don't agree -- but as stated, I have a major attitude about everything today.

I think I better go pray ... and no, I am in no way shape or form angry at the Lord.

One month ... 30 days ...

I realized this morning on the way to work that today marked my one-month anniversary with my diagnosis. I don't live and breath and think about cancer 24/7 now, not that's its gone but it's not forefront on my mind.

Please continue to pray about my healing (which I believe is coming/came) and the whole hair thing. There has been an increased amount in my morning brush ... (sigh) I know the Lord knows how much we can handle, but I doubt myself that I can handle this.

We did have a good visit with the surgeon yesterday, we both liked her and felt she was very honest with us.

I'm still not feeling up to par -- but I know some are interested, so I'll post some highlights.

-- She is gentle, compassionate woman, and we believe very honest.

-- No, she will not do surgery now. It's too close to the skin and she needs it to shrink more so that she will have skin for the plastic surgeon to do reconstruction. It pushes against the middle portion of my brea*t. Its still way smaller than it was, and we praise God for that.

-- She will see me in 2 weeks and check the progress, which is the best we've gotten. At least she will. If it shrinks enough we don't have to wait for their plan of chemo to be over. That's months down the road they think I should walk.

-- She stated that just because 2 lymph nodes showed swelling does not mean at all that there is cancer in them. I have (had) a wicked infection in that breast so it could very possibly be that. We are foolish enough to believe God answered the containment prayer. Can I get an Amen?

-- I have to be on antibiotics again.

-- I'm still nauseous.

-- She did say that she has noticed with progressive treatments, that the affects get worse.

-- We asked her about "natural" treatments. Her answers surprised us. She said that, Yes Vitamin C does prevent cancer. She said as far as the B vitamins - she would not say a specific type -- that it does NOT shrink tumours. And left it at that. She did say to talk to my Doc about what I was taking. Right now -- food is about all that goes down, and that depends on the moment.

-- At first, my hub was upset about the vitamins, but on the way home in the car discussing this, I realized that she only told the absolute truth. B17 does NOT shrink tumours -- but it does kill the cancerous part of them, therefore only shrinking the cancerous portion. But if the remaining tumour part is benign, it will leave that in your body. Very interesting!! I know by law she is liable for anything she tells us, and in a round about way she confirmed what we know about the vitamins.

-- We asked her what if it doesn't shrink more? She said then, we'll deal with it and go from there. So, they'd do surgery anyway. Skin or not. (sigh)

-- I've been assigned a Patient Navigator to assist with anything I need. 24/7. Wonderful lady -- cancer survivor herself.

-- She did question why I had 2 incisions for my port. Normally the breast surgeon does your port but mine changed as I did not have one at the time. No one mentioned a word at the hospital about it, but apparently they couldn't go through one vein, and had to use another. I still don't care for for the doc who did it. I didn't mention alot here, but we did file a complaint.

He doesn't need to do what he did, I'm pretty tough, but I can imagine a more vulnerable person-- they would have lost it. My doc was going to email him personally as it wasn't the first complaint he received about him.

-- Apparently I have a sensitivity to medical tape -- my right side is still a huge red mess.

-- I had a nightmare last night, actually repeated nightmares about this next chemo treatment. In the dream they were forcing me to do it and I was having to run away and hide. Whew! I'm not sure I'll go through with it. I just need the Lord to confirm what he wants me to do.

-- Any and all smells are extremely intensified right now -- its just not the norm for me. I never had a problem when I was pregnant, but this is ugly. I actually hold my breath or cover my nose, so I don't lose it. Yucko.

-- And yes, I did think I would be feeling better by now ... I can't imagine it worse. Or maybe I can and that's why I don't want to do it!!

-- My husband is absolutely committed to seeing me well -- he's a gem.

-- And yes, God (waving!!) you still have my utmost attention. I'm listening!

Tuesdays ...

Still struggling a bit with nausea today -- I opted not to take any more of the meds today. Trying to do without -- I can't believe it lasted this long! I feel old today -- my bones ache, and a journey of 100 steps feel like a million. I can't believe how tired I am getting so quickly.

But -- I am thankful to God today for touching my body and my hair. Please keep praying about healing and the whole hair thing! It doesn't want to cooperate much -- but I imagine its the effects of the chemicals in my system.

I crashed on the chair about 0730pm last night -- made it the sofa when my hub came in from the outside -- and then crashed again until I made it to my bed and up at 0430 for work.

My hub is starting to plant all my new fruit bushes/trees. It's a a lot of work! But its looking good!! I'm thankful for him -- he's been a huge source of strength to me, it hurts my heart to burden him so. I told him that he didn't sign up for this!! =(

We see the surgeon at 330 -- please pray that the Lord directs our steps during this season of life.

Farm Living is the life for me ... NOT!

Saw this today while pursuing KU's website.

It's a $50. per year donation -- I'd love to have it on my car. It's for a great cause.

KU was very easy going about releasing my mammogram and MRI CD for my surgery appointment tomorrow. Sarai will pick them up later today for me.

I didn't make it to church on Sunday morning. My husband brought me back home, I made it to the living room chair and proceeded to sleep until 12:15pm! The world was rocking pretty hard yesterday for me. In all honesty, I'm not sure I can do this -- especially if it gets worse!

The steroids make me hungry although I ate some bland things -- and then it just makes me feel worse when I ate, so it was a vicious cycle. Sense of smell is extremely intensified = gross!

I did make it to evening service, since communion and foot washing were planned. I hate to miss. A sister who just had surgery on Thursday, made it Sunday morning. I totally felt like a wimp. I think I can do pain, better than nausea. Although, I'd rather have neither.

I made it to work this morning, 20 minutes late but I made it. I'm thankful to the Lord today -- for shrinking this thing!! It's so awesome. Please help us pray about this surgery appointment. My husband and I both feel it needs to be removed. So many decisions.

We had an eventful morning. I promised myself I would leave my husband ALONE today since every day off and more have been taken with my appointments, I just wanted him to have some peace. The dogs got up, I let them out and 10 seconds later, you can hear Mini going nutso.

I knew right away that the opossum was back. (sigh) Of course, she thinks she is a warrior and can attack it. I was out there screaming at 0530am -- it didn't faze the dog or the rat! The dogs finally came in, I locked them in their cages and .... I went to wake the hub. So much for leaving him alone.

He got his rifle -- I could hear shots firing but didn't look. He came back in for more ammo. It was too dark to see -- Josh came zipping downstairs - What is dad shooting? LOL! How funny that he knew. They both went to the mudroom and Josh gave him some light and finally opossum went to opossum land forever. They can be vicious little creatures and this one was just too friendly around our house. I'm sorry, but it had to go!! We have 3 little kittens out there and guinea babies that were just born last week -- it had to go!!

our non-opossum friend on the way to burial = trash can

flowers given to me for making it through the 3rd chemo tx

baby guinea birds -- I can't handle their smell -- Ewww!!!
Lexi says if they knew how ugly they get when they got bigger, they'd probably give up on life!

Homemade Yellow Cake Mix

I honestly believe God's been dealing with me for months about our eating -- staying away from processed foods and going the more natural foods -- from scratch type of food.

Eating more fruits and vegetables and whole grains and less processed sugar.

I was so happy to see this -- it still has white flour but I bet you can incorporate some soft whole wheat pastry flour to replace some of the flour and pure cane sugar instead of granulated. In any case it's healthier!!

Homemade Cake Mix -- from Chickens in the Road

Image totally belongs to her as well! Lots of great posts on the blog too!!

Happy Mother's Day & Praise Report

I wanted to wish all of you a Happy Mother's Day!

May it be filled with the knowing that you are loved today and always by your family and our Lord.

It's been a bit of a vicious cycle this round -- struggling with constant nausea -- but thankfully no pain from the Neulasta shot. I opted to participate in a clinical trial for it -- maybe I didn't get placebo?? LOL!

I do want to give praise to the Lord for showing visible evidence of shrinking this tumour!! It has definitely gone down in size!! My husband even noticed -- it really shrunk enough to notice it has. I want to give glory to God for that, because truly He is the only one who could have shrunk it that fast. I noticed the morning after chemo -- no way did that one treatment do it. Thank you Jesus!!!

I still feel pretty blah today -- I have been faithfully taking all the meds -- I've needed them to function!! I did get out to the store yesterday and got to finally see Melinda at the hospital. They let her go too -- but she is too weak, its going to take time for her to get on her feet -- but thankfully that's all she had to go home with. God is good.

My husband decided I needed a fruit tree for Mother's Day -- and we were on our way to the store to go get it when Josh called and asked my hub something. Apparently he had the same idea and had bought me two trees!! Joy!! He of course, is the fruit king -- LOVES it. Lexi stopped by with a Raspberry Bush and a cute Orange Star Flower arrangement. I guess yesterday was just a super nice day -- an early Mom's Day.

Our "farm" now will have apricots (wink) (already had that tree!), peaches, (had) cherries, apples and a plum. We need to make sure some can pollinate the other -- or else we might have to pick up another. We need to use the land God blessed us with to provide some of our nourishment. We do have plants to get in the ground out there, but its been so super wet.

As far as the natural stuff we will be implementing -- once I can handle food -- is more water and walking for oxygen in my body. It fights cancer cells. More vegetables/fruit to make my body more alkaline (also makes the body a place where cancer can't grow) and as little sugar as possible. The sugar hasn't been a problem -- I can't stand the taste of it right now, so the Lord must have done something about that one. I need to lose more weight anyway, I've lost some but then they give you steroids and it goes back up a bit and then it will go back down. Slow and easy is the best way, and changing my diet will help. The family doesn't know that they are changing theirs too! I'll still make them treats -- just healthier ones.

Have a wonderful Mother's Day in the Lord -- by the grace of God, I'll be in church.

I've had better weeks ...

Struggling with the after effects of this treatment. During prayer meeting last night I went forward for prayer, and felt pretty good until about 3:00am -- I hope this doesn't end up being a very long day. (sigh)

If you would again, please remember me in prayer ... thanks so much! I missed 36.5 hours of work during this last pay period, please pray about my leave and job situation too.

I have an appointment with the new surgeon on Tuesday -- if she says we can do surgery, we're going forward with it.

Here's a huge victory report -- Its shrunk some!!! Another answer to prayer.

Have a wonderful day -- enjoy it doubly for me!!

Chemo # 3 -- I Did it ...

Its about 8:30pm -- but wanted to post a short note about today's outcome.

The Good News ?? My brain, (and yes Sarai there is one in there!), chest, abdomen, pelvis and bone scans all came out clean -- with the exception of the mass in my left breast. He did say that the lymph nodes show some swelling so there is "probably" some involvement.
Since I've been having an infection, we decided that since they don't know without any more biopsies, we are just going to go ahead and be foolish enough to believe that God answered the prayer by keeping it contained. He said it is advanced localized cancer. Works for us -- God knows all about it.

We went with the first harder treatment -- we have 2 weeks to see if it does anything. Thus far-- no shrinkage. He said he didn't expect any, but I keep expecting and looking for it.

Please pray about the whole hair thing! Not as vanity but glory to God -- its my covering!

A sister and brother in the Lord shared some natural things they did when their daughter had cancer -- so my husband called Canada at midnight and ordered some B-17. It came today and I've already started eating some. Pretty nasty stuff!! We plan to implement some other things -- which I'll share tomorrow. Hopefully I will be feeling as well as I do now. I'm sweating like crazy -- but am on my feet! That's a victory to me!

How can something that is supposed to help you~~~ destroy so many good things in your body?? Question of the ages ... thanks for your prayers!! We do see God at work. My mood-- pretty hopeful and just thankful to God for what He is doing and for all of you that are praying!

Please pray for my friend Melinda -- she had surgery yesterday, they had to go back in at 830pm due to bleeding and now she has lost a lot of blood! IJN! God is able!

1,000 Cranes

Not the best photo -- but wanted to share.

I'm at work today -- a little worn but here.

Josh shaved his head last night -- he said he'd lose his hair so I didn't have to. Love that kid!

Pray for Melinda today -- she is having surgery as I type this. In Jesus Name that all goes well.

Thanks for your prayers -- so many decisions and awaiting "good" news from scans!! IJN!

Did you by chance get the license plate ... of that truck?

I tried to post from my phone this morning, but could only go so far as the title!

I had my port inserted -- let's just say, it felt like a truck hit me by evening. (sigh) It's a bit sore today too -- I did NOT let them use it for my infusions today. I wimped out. Just keeping it real here.

I left the house about 8am and made it home about 4pm -- long day. I did get the CT Scans of my head, chest and abdomen and pelvis done. They also did a bone scan. In Jesus Name -- they are all clear!! We find out Thursday. My hub will be taking me to that appointment.

He has been looking into some nutritional things to do -- which basically makes the body a place where cancer can't grow. They are some interesting things which we learned which are a fact.
We are going to start implementing some of them. No hocus pocus stuff -- all food products basically and absolutely NO SUGAR. We found that it feeds cancer -- and you know I WAS a candy freak -- well that's over. I'm not feeding my enemy. LOL!

Thanks for your prayers -- they are greatly appreciated. Again, I want to thank God for my healing and walking with us during this season of life.

I did get a photo of the 1,000 cranes in the treatment room -- although its on my phone, but they all hang down from a big square light in the middle of the room. I had Rachel --who got my IV done on her first try. I vented a little about my doctor who did the port -- who I did not care for at all. God will show him. I like Rachel -- she's a super nice lady and nurse.

Planning Ahead ... and Keeping Busy!

The boys are gone -- and the house is quiet so I have been keeping busy by cleaning up some things that have been neglected and doing some cooking for the guys for the week ahead. Its not at all that my husband or sons can't take care of it -- but it fills a need for me to do it for them.

Its going to be a pantry eating menu plan this week, which is great that there is an abundance to do it except for some little items -- milk and eggs! God is good!

Made some LowFat Banana Oatmeal Bread -- its baking now! Smells yum.

Made up a batch of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough -- some to bake and lots to freeze. I just use my cookie scoop and put scoops on a cookie sheet, freeze and put in a plastic bag. Works great. We've tried both of her recipes -- I like the Land of Lakes but the guys and my co-workers like Gramma John's Recipe. Guess which one I mixed up?? LOL!

The menu for the week --

Sunday -- Chicken Italiano, Pasta and Broccoli or Roasted Green Beans (crockpot version!)

Monday -- Hamburgers and Oven Baked Fries (never happened last week!)

Tuesday -- Fajitas (found a bag of frozen pepper/onion mix in freezer!)

Wednesday -- Toasted Cheese w/Bacon, Veggies and Ranch. (This is good stuff -- not healthy but tasty -- going to use the 50% Light Cabot Cheddar from Costco. Does that help? =)

Thursday -- Leftover Spicy Shredded Pork on Tortillas (Doubt I will eat ... but praying!!)

Friday -- If I'm on my feet -- Buffalo Chicken Stromboli -- (will alter this -- I love Buffalo Chicken Pizza -- its beyond yummy!! There's things in the fridge for the hub to make or scrambled eggs and toast!)

We usually have some type of veggies -- I just don't always list them. Have a BUNCH of Steamfresh in the freezer from coupons that I received free. =) TGFMH!!

The Second Day ...

It looks like it will be a sunny day today!! Rain was supposed to be on the forecast daily for the next week. The dogs seriously need a bath. The boys will do that. They also have a Youth Service to go to at 1pm -- so should enjoy themselves a bit today.

It will be quiet here without them. I need to fill my day. The second day after the Taxol treatments proves challenging with needing that small room in your house frequently! =)

My nose burns and runs -- but its minor. I'm thankful for that. (and my healing!!)

We went to see Jeff Dunham last night. We've had tickets for months. He's a super ventriloquist. I'm not sure who I like the best. Probably Achmed -- he has some super goofy eyeballs.

And yes, I might have looked like an idiot -- but I wore a mask. Too many people and too many germs for this girl right now. The puppets were asking Jeff if he was sick and about wearing a mask (the whole swine flu thing is already in his act) -- boy did I get some strange looks. LOL!

Here's to a wonderful day in the Lord -- Be Blessed and thank you for your prayers!!

The CT Scan was broke yesterday so all my scans had to be rescheduled for Tuesday. I'll miss more work than I would have liked now... Port = Monday, Scans = Tuesday, Hard Chemo = Thursday. Friday == By the grace of God -- WELL!! In Jesus Name I pray!

Thankful Thursday!!

Amazingly enough I thought it was Thursday today!! How odd. During the early morning hours, laying awake talking to God -- this came to heart. I have so much to be thankful for -- and needed to express that especially during this season of life. But it shouldn't be just during this time.

I am thankful for my Savior and Creator -- who is also my Healer and the comforter of my soul.

I am so thankful He is walking beside me all the time, sometimes carrying me.

I do want to thank Him (again!) for Healing me. I do that alot. Pray without ceasing is pretty much a given at this time of life.

I am thankful for my husband and children who are being a huge support to me. They also put up with alot of my moods.

I am thankful for my family and church family and all their prayers being sent heavenward.

I am thankful for the wonderful dinner that Josh's girlfriend and her mom prepared for us last night. Yum!! Lasagna, salad, garlic bread, strawberry pie and even lemonade to drink! It was truly a wonderful blessing. She even brought over pink daisies for me. How sweet!!

I'm thankful I was well enough to enjoy it!!

I'm thankful for my co-workers/friends who have amazingly been a huge help to me. I am thankful for Beckie bringing me to my treatment is Kansas City yesterday and hanging with me. Also for the cute pink support bra she gifted me with as a gift for being done with chemo tx #2!!

Jason who covers for me and is taking a little more heavier load with me having so many appointments to go to. A boss who says put yourself first, your job should be 12th on the list.

Noah who I didn't tell -- but came in today with tears in his eyes -- and told me I needed to call him day or night for anything at all. Anything. He means it too.

I am thankful for the breathe of life and for the peace of God which surpasses all understanding!

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